Not really into blogging nowadays.. Life is just drinking and clubbing for me nowadays but after getting my results it'll all be a new start. :) Not sure if i would still want to further my studies in the future, it'll depends on my results. I'm still wondering what would life be for me like ten years down the road? My current plans for now is to find a stable job and settle down for the time being, save money and then sign up for make-up courses or private O's provided that i'm ready to study by then. However, i'll still cling on to the current one because i know that i wouldn't bear to leave the place. Time flies really fast.. .. Kind of worried for my results, it's coming out this Friday!! :O

Nephew Jarius came over to my house today, love his companion even though it's a hassle to look after him! Haha. He's getting more and more adorable, wonder what he will be like when he grows up. Seriously, society's changing and more kids are getting out of hands at a very young age nowadays. Stayed at home for today.. Realised that i'm having a huge appetite nowdays like eating 4 meals today and eating 10 chicken wings the other day! Or even after having my dinner i would still stuff myself with many chicken wings and my boss would be like, "Wah! Lydia, eat chicken wing again ah? Everytime i turn around i will see you having a chicken wing in the hand!". HAHAHA, side effects of drinking. I'm not worried for my body, what i'm worried about is my face! The fats i gain normally goes to the face, no wonder everyone loves pinching my cheeks (thick skinned ^.^).

This year, i've learnt alot of things. I'll treat the past, be it good or bad memories as a experience and a lesson learnt. It's all a part of growing up and parts and parcels of life. Even after having a bad fall, i'll give myself time to let the wound heal. Maybe i can help by not indulging myself with drinks especially when i realise that i'm feeling down because i don't know how long it'll take for me to recover. It's a challenge for me, but i'll try. :) Secondly, i feel that there's alot more unfortunate people out there so i can count myself lucky compared to them. Perhaps by thinking of that, it'll help a little. Even though it'll be a torment for me in the healing process, but it'll all get better in time. :) Lastly, i want to build a stronger relationship with my family because i cannot afford to have another regret in my life and only family are the ones who are really true. It's also another challenge for me because it takes time and sometimes we can't close our heart to the things that we don't want to feel.

It has been quite some time since i last typed out a long post.. Suddenly have the sense of inspiration, lol! Going to catch up with my sleep, bye!

None will really understand how i feel.

How i wish i can rewind time back to the days, when i was leading a happy life just by having my friends around me.

People do change. Rely on no one but oneself.

I'm having a very bad flu now.. Damn tired, wish to get to sleep but my flu is holding me back..!

Same routines everyday.. I wonder how long, this time round would be.. to get myself back on track again?

Something that we were once looking forward to.. 

If you were still here..



Happy 1 year anniversary.

Sometimes i wonder, in life.. why is it always the opposite? Must i bring myself to play the bad guy role so that things will be more fair to me? Be it kinship, relationship or friendship.. It's all the same. Well, life's like that.

I seriously don't know what's on your mind.
If you want to continue your childish acts, so be it.
You can cook up stories for all you want, as long as my conscience is clear.

Everything was just a dream. I've woke up from it and realised that you're not the same person i once knew. Feel foolish at times for deceiving myself that this couldn't be you.. Not going to let anymore of this affect me because it'll be me at the losing end. You can deceive others from that mask of yours but you can't deceive me. Really tired of all these games..

Clubbing anyone? Too bad Aminah can't shake it off with me tonight, HAHA! 

Many things running through my mind again. I'm in a mess. Someone tell me what to do!!?

Having my paper tomorrow and i haven't even started on my revision.. Why? Of all time.. everything choose to come to me during my examination period?

I swear i'm going to regret when i wake up to my senses one day.